What a boaring day...but actually everyday the same~ boaring!! feel like wasting time,there's been two more month to start my colledge!! Actually i'm planning for job hunting but because of the car driving thing..actually its blocking my time ..
Today my dad brought me to sksyen 9 to practiced car driving(actually already prac.a couples of time) on the road one is ok for me but the parking one still got a little bit..or more than a bit :) ...everytime reverse too fast..haha if there is a car behind sure i will bang it!! But today i think i'v got an improvement ,cause compare last time i don't even get the direction when doing reverse...(cause my sense of direction may weak a bit)so have to practice more!! TOMORROW my instructor will come and pick me up to learn car driving....wish he could teach me new thing and teach me faster(hope that he could teach me everyday)...i really can't wait to take test and get the 'P' !!!ya there's one more wondering he get my 'L' not??cause the day before yesterday he told me that he haven go and take it....so hope that tomorrow he already get it for me!!!
THAT GUY
Hai~ still wil thinking his stuff sometime and today watch the drama 'Autumn's Corcento' there was a scene of the couple who playing ice-skating,the boy hold and teach the girl skating while the girl holding his hand tightly...it was kinda romance and happiness scene...the scene just like me and that person !! we went ice skating before,he said that he wana prepare me before my ns friends come to pj (cuz at first they said they will come and visit us on may and go ice skating together,but lastly all of them cnt make it so we cancelled it)actually that time i was first time hang out with a boy...so it was the first special fren's outing for me!! but he not really,don't know how many time already he went out with girls(but is ordinary for him i think,cause he already went through 2 or 3 relationship..i was a shock too when i know that)i was holding his hand to but not as tight as the girl in the drama but i act a little bit that i'm scared la...haha don't know why??
But he already do his best to teach me and 'protect' me,but i still cannot skate!!actually he helped me to wear and put off the shoes too,quite shy men! but the thing he done for me i din'nt really feel the heart poppig or something!!weird right??my frens also say that..they said 'how come a boy doing such a romantic thing and treat me just like a princess,and u don't even have a bit be fond of him!! honestly i'm not really feel that,maybe i'm not kinda person who fall in love with the first eye contact!So until now i also don't know what do i feel to him ,am i admiring him or jus treat him kinda fren??there is one answer from my fren..she said 'maybe he is the first person who treat me so soft and the first admirer too, so u'll be something like lost and blurr.' i think she's right cause i just enjoying the things he doing for me and i don't really go and feel all the things he done for me..playing songs for me,confessing his feeling,the praise from him..honestly when he playing the songs while i actually not concentrate hearing what he played and what he sang...i just feel like more care about what others poeple thinking,do they feel so jealous or something !! and after he sang i just giving clap and praising him but not really from my heart,i admit...i really a bad girl!! so i think what i get from him now (not treating me as well as previously)is kinda thing i find myself....so quite regretful what i'm doing to him last time.But i really feel grateful and appreciate to him for everything he done for me,he's giving me some sweet memory when i'm 18th...playing songs for me infront of my fren,confessed throught the song's lyric,giving me chocolate,sending me lollipop at the jungle during camping,teaching me ice skating....this was a things who mostly teen girls will not met and it mostly only appear in the teen novel!! But i, i had it all!
So i really feel grateful for him and i'll really keep this sweet memory deep in my mind!! And i was no braveness to stand infront of you and say out the two words...'THANK YOU'!! if u get to read my blog someday, i wish u could accept it and forgive my badness.....
Know that maybe u already meet your mrs.right or maybe not,but the true thing that i know and i'm clear of it is i am no longer in your heart and maybe you seeing me will not have the sounds of heart poping and in your eyes i'm just an ordinary girl and not as special as the previous me in your heart!! But anyway i still wish u that u will happy ever with that mrs.right and i think she will be better than me and more treasure all the things u do for her!!And remember before u treat a girl like u want the chase her,u should really make it clear that u really fall for her....don't simply do anything to a girl even just giving a chocolate,cause girls kinda sensible creature!And don't simply confess to a girl....unless u really fall in love to her and please just confess it right infront of her!!it will show ur faitfulness and trueness of love!!
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